Reveal Yourself - The Long Game
Sometimes the best part of a challenge comes at what you think is the end, but is in fact the middle, or the next beginning. For me it’s been true over and over in relationship, physical practice, and comedy. Trying to make people laugh feels acutely like a trek through a hot and dry desert. The environment is inhospitable and water disappears before it hits the ground (golf clap). But if you commit to a gag, and keep on it, by the 12th time, they will be rolling in the aisles.
I’ve also been there with my yoga practice when I used to practice for 3 and 4 hours at a go. Around the 2nd hour, I’d be worked, sufficiently satisfied and ready to be done. To continue on takes complete attention, especially if you like to work in integrity as you are trying new things. That quality of attention is one of the things that makes a transformation possible. If I had quit the many instances where it got really hard, or even just after that point, I would not have been able to move on to the next level of my practice. Pushing through to the next new beginning is the place where I have gotten a taste of clarity or calm or whatever I needed to keep me moving forward steadily.
Now that I’m a mom, when I hit my physical edge, I often start to cry involuntarily. Not from pain or sorrow, but from the relentless physical demand, that I chose, under a time limit.
It’s happening again with this writing project. When I began, I didn’t have an idea about how it would turn out. I wanted to hold myself accountable in public to the things that are important to me and clarify how I relate to them and to you!
My work these days is in building a bridge between body practices and our connection to the magic within us. As I write about these things, I discover there is so much more to be said. Today is day 20/20 and all day I’ve been feeling a little morose about it. Because it’s not the end. It’s the faux finale, the half-time break.
But I’m in it for the long haul. The little victories are sweet and necessary, but what really gets me going is the possibility of staying bright and awake for my whole life - which takes daily practice. I’m no longer in contention with stepping into the ring. I’m here and the struggle is within the writing itself, which is I think how it should be for now.
What happens next is that I commit to write and post for 30 more days. Thank you for reading. Your words and comments bolster me in the desert and remind me there is rain to come.
See you tomorrow, xoxo